I'm Over 40 and I Want More Kids--Am I Coconuts?

I can honestly look myself in the mirror and say that I would love to have two more children.

What?????

In a social climate where big families are often frowned upon, I come to defy the naysayers!

Im a rebel that way.

I have my beautiful Em who will be the big ONE next month.  She was my surprise as I thought I was all done with motherhood--I mean the factory is closed and the show is cancelled.

Then Em came along and this child reopened my eyes.   So beautiful and loving and just a great kid.

Id forgotten all about nursing and teething and drooling and crawling...and I truly enjoyed those experiences with my children who are now adults.
Dare I say that raising my children was the best experience of my life?  It certainly is in the top of the top.

But why not just get a dog?

Ive asked myself the same and I can only answer it this way.  Everyone has a desire or two, something they are passionate about.

I love people and family.  I love nurturing and teaching and loving my children.  I loved having my cousins and siblings when I was younger.  It is in and out of that love that I would cherish an addition to my family.  My prayer is that any children I have will grow with a sense of commitment to family.

Of course, as my family is not cohesive much anymore because the elders are passing away, I would hope that my chosen and created family would appreciate and respect their lives and the lives of their siblings and to know....they are not alone.

But you're old-er?

Sure, and I am aware of that.  That's why my health has always been important to me and barring any unfortunate events, people are living longer and healthier.  My body is still in good condition.  Of course, if my doc gives the OK then the only thing that would stop me is me.

So, there you have it.  That's why I am feeling a great sense to have another child...or two.

Surely its not just because I like buying pink or blue baby clothes because I prefer yellow.

;)

Mommy Memories: 10 Weeks Pregnant with Morning, Noon and Night Sickness

I will talk about the good, bad, ugly and ugliest in this blog.

This post is from my 10th week of pregnancy at 40 years old with my baby, Em.

Just days after taking the home pregnancy test, my morning sickness kicked in...and when that happens, I can kiss the toilet bowl "Hello!" for the first trimester.

So, I kept a diary on most weeks...some weeks I just slept and slept...craved McDonalds amd slept.

Here's my entry:

"Im finally out of my single digits!   

Heading to the end of the first trimester. 

 Still nauseous and craving only McDonalds.  I can also tolerate sushi (only veggie) and noodles. 

 Im so over my insatiable Gatorade crave.  Now I want 7up!  That sounds so good to my belly right now. 

I must eat several times a day and I cannot let my stomach become empty...but saltine crackers are not working.  Thats so old school and before we had crackers like Cheez Its...but I dont want any crackers now. 

Its such a chore to do anything--sit, stand, sleep, stay awake.  There is NO comfort.  I feel swollen and as big as a house,  but I know Im no where near having a baby bump.  At least when I start to show, I will not be sick anymore. 

Im just tired of sleeping.  I have very, very vivid dreams.  Thank goodness, none are bad."

Boy, that feels like yesterday.   Funny how I would do it all again and this was the first pregnancy where I actually didnt throw up the entire time.  That was a relief.

Yet, its such an uncomfortable time.  Its like being out of control.   You are totally uncomfortable in any environment.

During this time, I dont care if my hair is mussed and ...I don't care to wear makeup, I hated brushing anything...I just wanted to feel normal since this is such an important time for the growth of the embryo.   Well, how the heck is my baby gonna grow if I cannot tolerate anything except fast food?

As a matter of fact, I wanted to wear nothing but a bedsheet tied like a toga with comfort granny shoes with thick soles...to the beach.

Its not a lazy feeling, its more of a completely exhausted and distraught feeling.  There is no escape!  Those hormones can kick your booty.

It feels so left-right and up-down--just insane!

The lovely part is you forget all about that feeling once the second trimester kicks in.

Relief!  Thank goodness!


Next time: Mommy Memories from Week 11.

Miscarriage and Memories: Moving Forward

Hello all,

Well, it was a very painful weekend.  We lost our baby just 2 and a half days after taking the home pregnancy test.

It turns out that I began bleeding profusely and had to go to the hospital.

I suffered with extremely bad back pain and cramps while my body did its best to heal.

We are just sad.  For me, I know that I have my healthy children and I am thankful.   I sometimes catch myself wondering the "What if..."

What I do know is that I am just a bit weak still from my previous pregnancy.   My body is still recovering since its only be 10 months since Em was born.

So, I just want to say that if you've had a miscarriage,  I empathize with you and I hug you and to all of our Little Angels...

Goodnight Sweethearts.
You are loved.

Dark Bleeding-Miscarriage or Not? Six weeks pregnant then... (WARNING: GRAPHIC IN NATURE)..

Good morning and goodnight, I should say.

We are in the wee hours of the morning of 15/03/ 14.  A few days ago I shared the good news with you about my pregnancy.  The other day everything was fine.

After a very calm evening, I was sitting down when felt something odd...like discharge...so I went to the bathroom to check and I saw that i had bled.

I immediately got so scared and nervous about a miscarriage.

I began to search the internet for any information I could find about what was happening to me.  I went out of the bathroom and over to Tym.

 I explained to him what happened and he held my hand and he said everything is going to be fine.

I want to believe in his words.  I was such a state of shock because of what was happening but then I realized something.

 I saw after reading online for 3 hours that I was not the only woman in the world that was experiencing this.   There are thousands of women out there experiencing what I am experiencing and there is a chance that it could be a miscarriage in the making as much is there is a chance that it could be just normal wear and tear on the uterus.

 I mean this isn't my first child but it is definitely my first pregnancy where I have experienced any bleeding.

 I checked the color of blood and it was about the size if maybe a stick of gum and it was very very dark red brownish color which, as I read MORE, this was very common.

Because of the color, the blood was very old which means it may have been there for a while in the body and just now making its way out.

 So I feel a little more confident that things are okay. Of course, there are so many things going on with me and I will keep you posted about my situation.  Im a very unique case.  First of all, I'm over 40, second--I have had 5 c sections, 3rd-'this is my baby #6 and my youngest child is only 10 months.  So there are a lot of factors that need to be taken into consideration with me, I know my pregnancy will be high risk because of all of the things from before.

 I will do what's right and go to my doctor next week for my appointment.   If I should have a spontaneous abortion (miscarriage) I will keep you posted...

Whatever the Doc says...I will post.

Of course, we're hoping for the best.

Positive Pregnancy Test Baby Reveal: Who to share the good news with first?

Hi everyone,

 This is the first blog post of my blog Baby and 40.

 I actually started this blog back in 2012 when I turn 40 years old and I became pregnant...I just never got around to writing.

I was a very excited and I went through a very interesting journey into 2013 and had my baby.

Now we are in 2014 and I just found out today, March 11th 2014, that I am now pregnant with my second child from my current relationship with my partner Tym.   

We have been together several years and we are very happy.

 We also have our regular worries, too, because we are older parents.   We are 10 years apart. He is in his early 50's and I am in my early forties and his concerns are my concerns, they pretty much matchup but at the same time we're just very excited because we are people that love our family and we definitely love our children.  We just love life and being together.

So who do you tell first?  Well, I'm telling you about my new baby-on-the-way!  Im excited!  Im so excited I could float on air!... and to be honest you probably would want to stick to some one that, you know, would be very positive with you-- very comforting to you and very loving toward you because a lot of people, family or friends, don't see being pregnant as a positive thing.

  I know that I will wait to tell some and probably not say a word to others.  Im doing that to keep my stress level down and to keep my life positive.  I dont want the negativity.

There's some negative connotations and stereotypes that go along with being pregnant.  Whether are you are married or not, whether you were older are young and it can cultural thing, as well.

 Some cultures promote large families more than others.

In my life, Tym and I, we are not new at this but every experience of having a child in our lives is new and we are very happy about this one, too.